Back to work... for the moment

 I've been painting again.  I put the easel in the kitchen and put all of my art supplies and all of preschool art supplies in drawers and cupboards by the kitchen table.  It has been awesome.  We do a lot more crafting now that everything is accessible.

one of our treasure supply drawers

I finally got the nerve to put brushes on this painting again and for three nights I have made major changes to it.  I like it better every time I paint.  It's still only 1/2 way done, but I'm getting the vision of how to finish it finally, and I love the concept.  I'm considering entering it in the Spring Salon.  We will see how it turns out. 

 

I've had a painting block and I finally decided it had a lot to do with how I felt about myself.  Sacrafice is the name of the game right?  Well, there has to be balance, which I have to learn more about and I have eroded boundaries.  I'm working on accepting and loving myself more so I can get out what is in my heart.  It's worth it because when I paint I feel alive and like I have a special power of expression that fills me up.  I really enjoy it even when it hurts like crap.  When my talent improves it won't hurt so much.  (I hope).

confession: I suffer from sexism.  I don't give women, even myself, enough credit.  It must stop and I'm analyzing it in all aspects of my life.  Allowing myself more feminine power and believing in myself, as a woman is essential.  I see women all around me apologizing for themselves and deferring to their male counterparts.  I watch women take a back seat all the time.  I do it all the time!  It's not right and it's not what God wants, but we sure get a lot of mixed messages about this from our culture.  I think I will paint a lot better when I get a better grasp on this.